Hello, Goodbye

2011

Thanks for being one of the best years to date. You brought me face to face with some of the most difficult decisions and I feel like without them, I wouldn't be who I am right now. There's parts of this year I really wished didn't go by so fast but they were wonderful. I've never experienced so much happiness or sadness until this year.

2011 tought me to not be afraid of my own feelings. I learnt to not be afraid of telling someone how I feel because they might just feel the same way. I know now that even if they don't feel the same way; it's not the end of the world. I learnt that sometimes you don't always get what you want and it's often the case that you don't get your fairytale guy at 17. And even after what feels like to short a period of time or maybe the best months of your life; it can all come crashing down. I also learnt what real heart break feels like. And in all honesty, I'm still not over it. Probably won't be for a while. It's probably the worst feeling to live with but I don't regret a minute of it cause it's ok to not be ok. It's okay to not feel good enough, to feel down, it's just a part of life. I've learnt it's how you deal with those feelings and how you overcome them is what really matters.

But most importantly, I learnt that you can't base your happiness off someone else. Someone might make you happy but they don't create your happiness. You have be content with yourself because at the end of the day when all those people are gone and you are left by yourself ... you're the one you have to live with.

So with 2011 coming to an end I'm not going to make up a bunch of promises that I know that I'm not going to keep for 2012. I'm not going to say that I'm going to change who I am, lose weight or improve a certain aspect of my life. I'm just going to continue to be me ... because I think that's good enough and it's worked so far, hasn't it?